One more sleep....

One more sleep and then I will be admitted into Blogett Hospital in GR on the Neurology floor for approximately 7-10 days into their new Headache Clinic with the intention of breaking the cycle of my continuous migraine that I have now had for 2+ years.  This will be done all through medications.  It's not a particular test or procedure.  There is a protocol of medications that they will follow and it will all be based upon how my body reacts.  I will be getting a PICC line first thing tomorrow morning (thank you Lord!), since my veins are so beat up and abused from all the many IV's that I have had over all the years.  The PICC line will be inserted by a Radiologist and that will be my continuous source for IV medications and they will also be able to draw blood from there as well, or at least that is the intention.  My Neurologist has trained the staff and has put this program in place here in GR over the past 10 months that he has been here.  This program is not new to him, but new to GR.  I will be the first patient going through it here in GR.  I truly am blessed with an amazing Neurologist that never gives up and always has another plan and always has compassion and listens to what I have to say.  I'm so very thankful that I got into him as soon as I did, he has a huge wait list now!  He's a wonderful doctor!!!  Thank you Lord for that!!!  And his PA, and staff are all great too.

Anyway, Friday morning I met with him and had all my "pre-admission" stuff done and we talked a bit about what this was all going to "look" like.  He said the medications would more than likely make me very sleepy/groggy and even sedated.  I could also experience hallucinations, so that could make things interesting. So if I post crazy stuff on FB you'll know it's me seeing things on top of having no brain or memory because of the other meds I'm on!!!  At least it will be entertaining....lol!!!

All joking aside, there is a lot riding on this treatment plan.  My Neurologist is very hopeful and optimistic that this will break the cycle.  I will admit I have wavered pretty much daily in regards to this.  I've fought with giving it to God and letting go.  Getting my head and my heart on the same page.  This morning in church I finally laid my fears, my anxiety, my insecurity, my "what if's" at the foot of the cross and put it all in the hands of God, the Great Physician.  Of course it hit my like a ton of bricks during a song (God always seems to speak to me through song).  The song is called "This We Know".  I'm going to add the song in here, and the words as well.  I couldn't even sing the words...we trust you....we trust you....your ways our higher than our own.  The tears were flowing, God was reaching out to me, His child.  I felt Him saying no matter what the out come, trust me.  And then the message was along the same lines....don't fight your battles on your own...trust me!!!!  Keep trusting and leaning on ME!!!  For greater is HE that is in ME than anything that comes my way!!!  Pastor Ken has been taking us through Joshua and discussing battles.  Man, do I feel like I'm smack dab in the middle of a battle!!!  Yup, I sure do!!!  But no matter the battle, no matter how hard and painful the battle is....I am to TRUST God!!!  Keep trusting....Keep leaning!!!!  Words I needed to hear this morning.  Was I in pain sitting there this morning?  Yes.  But God still met me there and spoke to my heart.  I'm trusting God has a plan, I don't know what it is, but I will keep trusting....and keep leaning for I am not facing this battle on my own!!!  Praise God for that!!!!




This We Know - Vertical Church Band

You are who say you are
You’ll do what you say you’ll do
You’ll be who you’ve always been to us Jesus
Our hope is in you alone
Our strength in your mighty name
Our peace in the darkest day remains Jesus


CHORUS
This we know 
We will see the enemy run
This we know
We will see the victory come
We hold on to every promise you ever made

Jesus, you are unfailing


Our God through the wilderness
Our joy through the heaviness
Our way when it seems there is no way
Jesus


BRIDGE
We trust you
We trust you
Your ways are higher than our own