Forgiven

Lately I've been struggling with feeling forgiven for mistakes and choices that I've made in my past.  Struggling with whether or not they still define me as who I am today.  Struggling with what others think of me because of those things, ie: divorces, walking away from Christ, etc.  Yet in my mind I know that it's not about what others think about me and if they are going to judge me, it's between me & God.  Because ultimately I am forgiven and His grace covers all my sins.  I wish I wasn't self conscious about what others thought about me, or felt that I had to have their "approval".  I think it all stems back to not ever being popular in school, being bullied for many different reasons.  Struggling with self esteem and to a point still struggling with that as an adult.  And then when people judge me about my divorces, it brings those feels right back up.  Due to extensive counseling at church, which has been a total God-send!!!  I know in my heart that this is only the devil trying to gain foothold in my life and I have to not allow him to do that.  I also know in my heart that God's grace and forgiveness covers all my sin and that I am a child of God and I'm forgiven.  My sin is no greater than anyone else's sin.  And when I worry about those judging me, most of them don't even know the story.  They haven't taken the time to ask.  So whatever their issues are with me, is ultimately an issue between them and God, not with me.  Because I've worked it through with God, I'm forgiven.  I am a child of the King, I belong to Him.  He has washed me white as snow and forgiven me as far as the east is from the west....Praise God!!!!  I AM FORGIVEN!!!!!  I just have to sometimes, ok often, remind myself of that and know that my judgment is with God and God alone, not with others in this world!!!  This song so spoke to my heart and that's why I wanted to share this with you.