Lord I Trust You

I heard this song on the radio by Selah.  It's on their new CD coming out.  The words spoke deeply to my heart.  I have listened to it over and over and have prayed that the words would be a reflection of my heart and my desire to trust the Lord with my whole heart!  To let go and let God.  And I know that a saying that is often said.  But I am working hard at letting go of what I have no control over and giving it to God.  Casting my anxieties onto Him because He care for ME!!!  Because He wants to take care of that for me.  He wants me to trust Him!  I don't want to ramble on and take away from the song and it's words, so I'm going to let the song speak for itself, because I think it's powerful!  I hope you are blessed!


"Lord, I Trust You"

It may not seem my heaven it will take
I fear that in the face of trial I'll brake
Any troubles just a day away
Lord, I trust you

The best, the worst of day is yet to come
The glorify regardless of the cost
The magnify where the joy allows
Lord, I trust you

Lord, you are life and sacrifier
Lord, you are the grace that rises higher
Oh there will never be the day that you are not with me
Oh Lord, I trust you

I believe but help my unbelief
Help me go wherever you will lead
Do with me whatever you will please
Lord, I trust you

Lord, you are life and sacrifier
Lord, you are the grace that rises higher
Oh there will never be the day that you are not with me
Oh Lord, I trust you

I can't find the strength to pray
They all seems lost and it's too late, Oh
Cannot fear what comes my way
Then find me faithful in that day
Cause the only hope I have is you will be enough

Lord, you are life and sacrifier
Lord, you are the grace that rises higher
Oh there will never be the day that you are not with me
Oh Lord, I trust you
Oh Lord, I trust you

God IS good!!!!

(2) Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles of any kind come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. (3) For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. (4) So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing. - James 1: 2-4

For the more we suffer for Christ, the more God will shower us with his comfort through Christ. - 2 Corinthians 1:5

Therefore, my contentment is not based on my circumstances, nor is my identity in Christ based on my circumstances!!!  I am defined as a child of the King, not a woman dealing with chronic pain.  I am defined as a child of God, not a woman who has been through 2 extremely awful, abusive, horrible marriages that led to divorce.  I am so thankful that through biblical counseling God has opened my eyes and has shown me where my true identity is!!!  For many years I struggled with how I was identified by others.

Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect. - Romans 12:2

This past week was a week of many emotions for me.  A week ago today is when I found a lump on my breast.  It seems like a long time ago!  I haven't gotten a whole lot of sleep.  But hopefully, you have seen my update on FB that the doctor called and the lumps are of no concern at this time. PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!  There is bruising to the tissue around the lumps, so I need to keep an eye on the area and go back in 6 months for a recheck, or sooner if anything changes.  Prior to going in for the testing I did have peace and I knew it was in God's hands because in all honesty there really was nothing in my power that I could do to control the situation.  Yes, it was a scare and yes, my mind immediately jumped to worst case scenario as cancer seems to run in my family.  And yet, last night (after I received the report) and was laying in bed for the night I was frustrated with myself for not trusting God more.  God has been SO good, SO faithful, SO gracious, SO loving, SO forgiving....and I could go on and on.  Why did I not just hand it over to Him in the first place?  It would've saved me a lot of stress and anxiety!!!  I'm going to be completely honest and humble with you, I think it boils down to control.  I'm a planner, details, organized and like to have things in order and know what's going to happen & when, etc, etc.  This was not planned, not on my schedule and threw me for one heck of a curveball that I didn't really like.  Even as I battle the chronic migraine pain continuously, I often find myself in my conversations with God asking Him what He's trying to teach me through this phase in my life. Because I do truly believe He's trying to get my attention and teach me something, but I have yet to figure that out, maybe I'm just a really slow learner.  Maybe he's trying to get me to let go, to not be in control?  Maybe He's trying to get my attention and get my focus on Him, when before my focus was certainly not on Him.  I'm not sure, but I'm trying to work through that process and I feel that as I'm faithful to trust Him and deepen my relationship with Him and study His word and be open to listening to Him, that in time He will show me.  I would so covet your prayer support as I continue to walk this amazing journey of growing in my relationship with Christ.  I am so blessed already and God continues to pour over His blessings.  Please pray that I also remain focused on the blessings and not the trials.  God IS good!!!!

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. - Deuteronomy 31:6

This is my prayer tonight, I pray that it may bless your heart as well....